Friday, October 31, 2014

In Over My Head

2 Corinthians 12:10, "That's why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

I sat in the training room overwhelmed by the facts I was finding out. My heart was broken inside by the reality of our broken world, and as I sat through training for the ministry I feel God has called me to be a part of, I felt anything but qualified. I was in over my head.

Since I was 12 years old, this ministry has stood out to me. God tugged on my heart at a young age, and throughout my life I knew I was called to be a part of the change.

Have you ever found yourself feeling as if you're in over your head?

Maybe you feel called to feed the homeless, but you then realize how many people are starving, and you wonder how you can ever make a difference.

Perhaps you hope to find a way for abuse to end, but then you find out how many people are abused daily and you think you should give up before you even start.

Clean drinking water could be what you desire to give to those who have to walk for miles just to find contaminated water that we wouldn't even bathe in, yet it feels like an impossible need to meet.

These heartbreaking facts can cause you to feel like you don't have what it takes. They can cause you to feel as if it's a broken world we live in, and we can't do anything to help bring restoration.

Going back to that training room, this is how I felt: I was torn between the feelings of purpose and brokenness.

I was excited to see how God was allowing me to be a part of a wonderful ministry to change a life even if for only one. But then a broken heart followed, and I believe the brokenness I felt gave me a glimpse of how Jesus feels in His heart about the horrific things that are happening.

Overwhelmed by the new knowledge I was taught, I thought, "I'm in over my head." However, for some strange reason, I realized in that moment I was right where I needed to be. The reason? God's power works best in weakness. (See 2 Corinthians 12:9).

I was humbled when I was reminded just how desperate I am for God... always... not just in the moments where I feel it's too big a task for me. In all honesty, I can do nothing without Christ. (See John 5:30). How silly of me to think I could do anything good apart from Him.

What is God calling you to? What God-given dream is in your heart?

Do you feel like it's beyond you? Yes? GOOD!!! Step out and dare to do what God has called you to do knowing that you are in over your head but remembering that God's power works best in your weakness!

Dear Heavenly Father,

The ministry You've called me to makes me realize I'm in over my head, and I am well aware of the fact that this is bigger than me. Lord, sometimes I'd like to close my eyes and shut my ears to the brokenness in this world, say a quick prayer, and then go about my life as if all is well. I know You're in control, but I also know You've called us to be Your hands and feet. Lord, only by Your strength can I do this. I can't do it without You, but thankfully, I can do all things through Christ Who strengthens me. (See Philippians 4:13). Take me and use me for great things that only You can do! In Jesus' Name.

Amen.