Heartfelt Letter From My Heart

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to share a little bit about what I've been going through today so that anyone else going through the a similar thing could be encouraged and not feel all alone.

Today was rough. I've been doing fine with this situation for some time, but just recently it's become difficult again. What am I talking about??? Singleness! Today I felt like all I could do was cry. Maybe that sounds dramatic, but I seriously was having a heart issue moment. My heart was aching. I was longing for someone to share my life with. Right now is not God's timing though. Two and a half years ago He promised me that He was sending my husband to me. I got all excited. My heart was racing, and it felt like it skipped a beat. I was psyched! Now, two and a half years older and still single, I catch myself doubting if this promise will ever become my reality. I remind myself day after day that I need to have the right perspective, but, especially on days like today, I find myself struggling to do so. There have been times I've thought, "Even if I have to date a few toads, just to have someone there, it wouldn't be so bad. I don't care if he is "Mr. Right." I'm lonely and can't take it anymore."

So here's where I was today. Pretty ugly place hu? Then something amazing happened! God happened!

God pulled on my heart and spoke His truth to me. He strengthened me and gave me what I needed to press on and not give in. He spoke Scripture to me such as Matthew 5:10 which says, "God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.", and Matthew 7:13-14 which says, "You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it." Other encouraging verses He gave me were Matthew 5:11-12, Hebrews 11:1, Hebrews, 11:11-12, Isaiah 43:1b-2, Isaiah 40:31, and my favorite, Hebrews 12:12-13 which says, "So take a new grip with your tired hands and strengthen your weak knees. Mark out a straight path for your feet so that those who are weak and lame will not fall but become strong."

Did my circumstances change? No! As I write this letter to share with you, I am still "single"; but, I'm not alone, and neither are you. God promises never to fail us or abandon us (Deuteronomy 31:8).

Whatever you're going through, I pray that you'll be refreshed and encouraged to keep pressing forward towards God. Don't give in to the temptation to do the wrong thing. Stand strong in Christ!

Dear Lord,
Thank you for hearing my heart's cry and coming to my rescue. Thank You for strengthening me to do the right thing and keep pressing on. I'm so sorry for doubting You! Please, forgive me. Lord, You see all my friends who are struggling with this exact thing. You know their hearts as well. I lift them up to you and pray Your blessing on them. Touch them as You touched me, and give them the encouragement to know that You love them and have a greater plan and purpose for their life than they could ask or imagine. Strengthen them and help them to, "...be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1:9b.) God, I know that we have longings in our hearts that only You can fill as well. Whether You choose to fill those gaps through friends, family, or Yourself, I ask that it will be You doing the filling. Thank You for caring about us as You do. We don't deserve it, but are eternally grateful for You! I love You, Lord, and ask these things in Your precious, powerful, and loving Name. Amen.